I am enough

08 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment

by jemelikova in Stories from the world and me Tags: empowerment, I am enough, Power of vulnerability, Veronika Jemelikova

Today I slept 13 hours. I am exhausted. Maybe I started “my new life” with too much excitement. But it is so worth it. I dreamt about so many things. About traveling, about love, about friends, about happiness. I realized how many things I have in my life right now and how many expect me in my future.

Last time I wrote about searching for myself, discovering who I am and who I want to be. And failing in it over and over again. I decided to stop searching everywhere. I decided me, right here and right now, that is it. I am enough. There is nothing more to be discovered, because it is all here already.

My friend wrote me an amazing story her friend told her somewhere in the jungle of Latin America.

Someone, it is not important, who he was, whether he was a king or a thief, well this someone lost a key. He was searching for it. He searched everywhere, not being able to find it and he started to be desperate. People were sorry for him and started helping him. Firs one, then one more and another one. In the end there were many people searching for the key. Until one came and asked Someone: »But where did u last see the key?« »There, in the other room, but it’s dark there now.”

When I was searching, and I was not alone doing that, I was here and there, discovering the world and thinking home is something known, something I might never find my answer because I know it here too well. And also a place where all the memories and all the pains and heartbreaks would never allow me to find the key to myself. But maybe I was wrong. Maybe before going to find my happiness in the world I have to find it here. In me and in this very country, which is my home.

I would like to share an amazing TED video with you. It really resonated with what I feel right now. What I feel when I am with certain special people that brighten my days and also what I feel when I doubt myself and my own value and what I am worth.

I hope we have all the capacity to become whole-hearted people. To be vulnerable, put yourself out there. Ask someone on a date. Expect the best, but overcome hearbreaks, because they are part of your life. To know we are worth it, worth of each and single thing we want. Because we are.

 

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